Dear GOD

Dear GOD,

forgive me for all my mistakes
You know that i can handle it..
yes I can..

all just a matter of time,
but I have to believe that I am capable,
that I could do this.

I just need to be sure ..

confidence with myself.

i will write my own ending.

saturday 11pm wita 7 may 2011
my 1008 day running in this island

How its End

here i am...

1008 days across the island
886 days on this trees

and now my heart singing like this...

Hold your grandmother's bible to your breast
Gonna put it to the test
You wanted it to be blessed
And in your heart
You know it to be true
You know what you gotta do
They all depend on you

And you already know
Yet you already know
How this will end



There is no escape
From the slave catcher's songs
For all of the loved ones gone
Forever's not so long
And in your soul
They poked a million holes
But you never let them show
Come on its time to go

And you already know
Yet you already know
How this will end

Now you've seen his face
And you know that there's a place in the sun
For all that you've done
For you and your children
No longer shall you need
You always wanted to believe
Just ask and you'll receive
Beyond your wildest dreams

And you already know
Yet you already know
How this will end?

•byDevotcha•

aku adalah kamu

Tanah yang ku injak sama sepertimu,
langit yang ku junjung sama sepertimu...
aku tak berbeda darimu...

udara yang ku hirup, kau hirup juga
dingin yang kau rasa , kurasakan sama
kita tak terlihat beda...

matahari tak akan terlihat beda dari tempatmu
bulan dan bintang kan terlihat sama dari tempatku..
kan memberikan cahaya..
yang sama untuk kita

warna busanamu yang terlihat beda,
nada kau dendangkan sama indahnya
harmoni simponi dunia..

kendati doa terucap beda
anugerah yang sama kita terima..

aku adalah kamu...
manusia yang sama...

maybe

My body, My hand,
My heaven, My land,
My guardian angel is mine

And you say…
My dreams, My head
My sex, My bed
And it's my Corona with lime

And You say..
My head, My frown
My kingdom, My crown
My palace and court is mine

And You say..
My lights, My show
My years to grow
The time that I spend is fine

And then I say ..
Maybe we could divide it in two
Maybe my animals live in Your Zoo
And then I say ..
Maybe..., Maybe I'm in love with You…

But You say…
My coat, My hat
My bones, My fat
My zipper is shut by me

And You say..
My Skin, My blood
My devil, My God
My freedom is what You see

My begining, My end
My nuclear bomb to pretend….. BOMB

"...the reason of yesterday..."

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle...
I don't know where to go..., can't do it alone.. I've tried and I don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop...
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot to be something I'm not..
I'm a fool out of love 'cause I just can't get enough...

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment..., I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down..., I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show...

The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs and synchronize in time. It's a joke nobody knows, they've got a ticket to the show...

just enjoy the show...


** Lenka - the show
this is the reason of yesterday..
if only i still have enough time to explain it to you about yesterday..

if only i can beg it to you...

one day, if there's a chance for us to meet again...
hopefully everything better planned.
there's only you and me.
us
and a time to discuss about everything.
sharing all the stories just between you and me.
don't care if it's just a few minutes, hours, and hopes to for days or forever ...

i hope i can hold your hand, and hold you tight
and i will willingly whatever will be happen afterwards

happy endings not always end up together
and togetherness is not an end, but the beginning of a new story.

and I'm quite happy to spend a moment with you
that if i can beg it to you...

**summer 2010

life is a circle of journey

"...if once we had decided to forget, then we alone can decide to remember.
we all began started the same journey.
for it didn't have a start and didn't have an end.
we will just find one another again and reside in one another's heart.
it's a circle we cannot beat.
might as well just enjoy the game.
yes life is a circle of journey..."

let's go sleep pus..

it was about sleep and illegal immigrants that stay in my place
the girls and my kitten that always competiting in terms of sleep per day
and both of them are very entertaining my life...
hahahaha

akasia 6 july 2010

how stupid i am??? ohh.. VERY.... *6 thumbs up*

I was too stupid.
& how I was too stupid.
very stupid...
and too loved my own stupidity.
love with how stupid and foolish soluble in any sense that way too stupid.
among many ways to realize that feelings and act stupid and still chose the most stupid way to do.
and punished myself with stupid way.
why ignorance was piled high and mounting a heap of stupidity for stupidity?

I was too stupid to love.
and very stupid to realize with how I was love him.
how much longer this ignorance will be nesting in my soul.
and it took how long this folly will take root and become increasingly difficult to remove crust later.
stupidity with my own trouble & with the way that I love you...

*akasia 560 days over, and today i realize that no love again from him for me..., never!!*

"...now i must wave goodbye, wave goodbye... cause i don't want to cry again..." *ms - KoC*

We sit and watch umbrellas fly, I'm trying to keep my newspaper dry
I hear myself say,
"My boat's leaving now"
...so we shake hands and cry
Now I must wave goodbye, wave goodbye....

You know I don't want to cry again..
I'll never see your face again..., I don't want to cry again...

We leave to their goodbyes, I've come to depend on the look in their eyes..
My blood's sweet for pain, The wind and the rain brings back words of a song
And they say wave goodbye, wave goodbye...

...so I read to myself
A chance of a lifetime to see new horizons on the front page
A black and white picture of manhattan skyline

*by KoC*
my 681 days across the island & 559 days nest on the trees